Just Seeing It

Weekly Message, November 26, 2005
Just Seeing It
Written and transcribed by Terry Grant.

This is the continuation of a message I have transcribed and edited from a talk Ishvara gave on October 23, 2005. - TG.

Ishvara:

There is a better, freer way of being. There is a liberated way of being, if you have the courage to drop the past. That’s what it involves: dropping it. Every moment you entertain a contrary, disharmonious thought, it gains power and energy. So the mechanism is the focus, the entertaining. The emotions are not magical demons (although they may appear as such) that seemingly just pop into the moment. In fact, they are only energized when you focus on them.

The foundation of all things is thoughts--thoughts that arise from beliefs, concepts, and conditioning. Within that same realm, that same brain, are other thoughts: thoughts that liberate, that bring together, that harmonize, that transcend the personal and conditional. If you will grab yourself and place yourself in that place, you begin to look for the connections. You cannot find the connection if you have a perception or an agenda that you are right, because if there is something right, there is something wrong, and that doesn’t create connection.

You can use the experiences of the past to literally fabricate an awareness, a possibility of connection, which is very transcendent. I do not say it is easy. It really is the last human hurdle, the last blockage, in the way of becoming the new human. As long as emotion has its way, you don’t have enough energy to move up to the next step. Your energy is being focused into concepts and beliefs, things that have been accepted as valuable.

For the new human, Life involves feeling. Feeling comes from awareness and connection. Feeling comes from knowing that you are all right, but also the awareness that you need not prove something. In feeling, your whole life becomes about finding connections that harmonize. There is a cooperation in this. The new species is the pinnacle of what it means to be a "team player." There is no personal agenda for the new human. There is no other. There is, “How can we make this work?” There is a willingness to drop whatever is in the way. It is an intense focus, but it is a focus that is inspired from a place of clarity, of knowing that each human being is far more capable, that within each human being is the new human, waiting to break out of the shell of indifference.

This takes courage. You have lived the biggest part of your life in the emotional realm, and you wonder why it’s seemingly so powerful? You’re just used to it. It’s so normal. What’s normal is the program, the belief, the concept, and the condition. These things have nothing to do with Life itself. They have everything to do with the past: indifference, fear, control, and manipulation. The new human sees all of that as death.

There is a better way to be, and that better way is within you, but you have to work to get to it. You look very closely at what motivates you. You look very intently at why you say what you say, why you do the things you do, why you react the way you do. The intellect says, “Oh well, that’s right. I’m right. I have a right to be that way.” The low intellect validates that position every time it comes around. The high intellect is watching, and says, “You can go there if you want to, but it’s really a waste of energy.”

When you hold to "I'm right," it is as if you have polished all your floors, made them all shiny, and then you dump a bunch of sand in the middle of the room and scrape it all around. Or, you have your car detailed, all clean and nice, and you go out and drive it through mud puddles. All humans are guilty of doing stupid things. But if everybody is guilty, guilt doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a place where you can see and recognize, “Oh, I got hooked by that again. Maybe next time I won’t.” That is the trick. There is no use in regretting or bemoaning that an emotion has hooked you, because that just makes the hook stronger. Instead, it is a matter of just seeing it: "Oops, there it is again. Maybe next time I’ll go another direction. Maybe next time I won’t react. Maybe next time I can see a bigger picture. Maybe next time it won’t even be important to me."

So much of my life was controlled by emotions. When I was younger, I was an emotional wreck. That was my weak spot. If anyone wanted to get me, all they had to do was grab that emotional hook, and I was damaged goods; I was powerless. Yet it was also a very emotional hook that woke me up. I could not have awoken if I hadn’t realized the hook. I finally saw the hook was not important. I saw it had nothing on me; it was just the learned reaction of a poor little boy who was defenseless and helpless in the big, mean world. I had spent many years trying to escape, but every effort of escape just dug the pit deeper. There was a moment--a moment when I saw that. It was like dying. My whole life passed before me. I saw the trends and the inclinations. I saw how I had been totally controlled and manipulated by my own beliefs and concepts.

It is easy to blame others. It's funny. If you believe something is true, there will be other people who will validate that "truth." It happens all the time. If you believe you've got the hook, that very belief becomes the hook, and the energy will become snared every time you turn around. Then you can blame the energy, you can blame others, because you have the hook. They validate the hook. The intellect says, "It's their fault. They did it to me. I'm innocent." That's an excuse.

The actuality of the situation is that I was stupid and naïve. It wasn't my fault, but that was the situation. After the hooks were validated by the outside, I believed the hooks were real. I believed it was the outside that did it. As long as I believed it was the outside, as long as I blamed somebody else for whatever was happening to me, I was vulnerable and powerless, and everything kept happening to me. Was that an illumination! I saw how, inadvertently, I was manipulating and controlling the situation from a place of belief and concept. I saw I could blame no one for the situation. It was as if the whole world around me was just playing the part for me.

It is very interesting when you catch the world playing the part. If you are really sincere and open, you can actually see the lines you wrote and handed to someone else. We call it projection. It is really writing the script and saying, "Here, this is how you are to act, then I will act this way, and we will forget we are acting." You will think it is real.


This message is part 2 of 4 parts. It will continue with "Judgment Day," part 3 of 4; and conclude with "It Doesn't Matter," part 4 of 4. It began with "The Last Hurdle," part 1 of 4.


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